Today marks the first anniversary of my “liberation” from my drab office job that I loathed. (Actually, truth be told, the job had become boring as hell but the boss was – let’s just say we didn’t gel as a team and leave it at that.
What have I done since? Nothing and lots! I mostly used the time to just breathe. Luckily I had a decent severance package and was able to go on E.I. which have given me some extra time. I sometimes feel I’ve been a bit of a slacker and I guess after thirty years of working almost non-stop (breaks for three babies don’t really count) I felt I deserved the break. I was supposed to use this time to really get a business going regarding food and, though I’ve had a contract here and a cake there; created a website I don’t adore and took long walks while taking lots of pictures, I haven’t really done anything much to promote myself. I think it’s a mixture of a few things:
- Fear of really putting myself out there
- Not truly knowing exactly what I want to do
- Lack of clarity (goes with the second one)
- Just plain tired
- Not truly believing in myself…
Well, enough is enough already! I had promised myself I would start something. I’ve already paid for Marie Forleo’s B-School – NOW I will DO it! I’ve already paid for Courtney Johnston’s fabulous Copywriting course – I will do THAT one too! I will NOT sign up for anything else. I will avoid “shiny new object syndrome” and I will actually finish something I’ve started.
If nothing else, I will gain clarity and get something into motion, otherwise, I’ll find myself applying for an office job and falling back into that grind I’ve been so happy out of.
By putting this out into the Universe, I’m holding myself accountable.
Well first of all, congrats on your one year liberation anniversary! So fabulous that you are not in the rat race. Second, don’t be too hard on your self. I am sure it will all come together at some point in time. And third, believe in yourself and fly (http://anarette.com/2014/08/17/beliefs/)
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Thank you my friend! Sometimes we still need to give ourselves a shake (which is what I was doing). I, too, feel it will come together at some point… eventually!
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It will, enjoy your freedom!
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😀
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What also works for me is to make a list of the things I did accomplish instead of making a list of the things I have not accomplished (yet) 🙂
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I really should start making lists….
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Only if it helps you 🙂
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Happy Anniversary, Dale! I am seven years out, and I’m still figuring out what I want to do. I know I’m still growing and learning tons. My tutoring business is great, and I’m happy doing that. Is it my forever thing? Not sure. There are some projects I’ve thought about and never started, and in reflection I realize that they’re things I really wasn’t gung ho about. I figure I’m aiming to live to 100, so I’ll get that novel done and the marathon run by the time I’m 90 or so! In the meantime, we’ll enjoy the ride – and all the questioning, exploring, and fun that come along with it!!
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Thank you Tammy! Seven years already, eh? Wow… Me too, I’m going to live until I’m 100 so I guess I’ll find the time to find my bliss and enjoy the ride finding it. Thank you so much for commenting. (I admit to missing reading you…but am so happy when you chime in here and there!) Hugs to you and CJ! xoxo
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You forget to add the kindnesses and happiness you have spread across the world. You must believe in yourself more as you stand out as a sincere, caring, vibrant, sensitive human being.
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Oh gee, Jean. I am beyond touched. Thank you so much. My day has gotten so much brighter! xoxo
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Going to go with what “socialbridge” said….times two and then squared!
You are supposed to be where you are when you get there. That’s a given…and look at the gift you’ve given me. Considered yourself kicked softly, and then hugged hugely…RR
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Oh Raye… You are my Raye of sunshine this morning! I thank you from the bottom of my heart and accept the kick and hug! xoxo
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Congratulations and good for you! A year isn’t such a long time after working non-stop for 30 years – you obviously need some fallow time to let things germinate.
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Thanks Andrea! I think I really did need this time…
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