“Sometimes life knocks you on your ass… get up, get up, get up!!! Happiness is not the absence of problems, it’s the ability to deal with them.”
― Steve Maraboli,
Why is it when we are über tired, can barely keep our eyes open, our limbs feel like mush and we drag/crawl our asses to bed that the brain decides… “Yep… this would be a great time to go into overdrive… dontcha think, Body?”
However, apparently, just like my kids, the brain doesn’t listen. Doesn’t give a rat’s ass about what I am telling it/them. The hamster wheel keeps a-turning. I’ve tried many techniques over the years:
- Take out a pad and write all the things whirring round the brain;
- Do the 7-4-8 exercise: inhale for seven counts, hold for four, exhale for eight. I usually end up yawning in between though, will admit, occasionally this does work, IF there doesn’t seem to be any thoughts going on, sorta;
- Read for a bit;
- Drink a cup of hot milk – hey works for babies and occasionally for me!
If all the above fail, and it’s been a few nights in a row, I resort to 0.5 mg of Clonazepam. Within half an hour, if all is well, I’m finally gone… for at least four hours, five, if I’m lucky. I really try to avoid taking this but a girl’s gotta sleep.
So, what has been preoccupying me lately?
I hate sounding redundant because the things that I listed here still apply but in a new form…
- The house, though officially has a “For Sale” sign in front, still needs to look “perty” all the time and is an on-going battle with my inhabitants. Working on getting them to participate a bit more;
- The Mother-in-law, though some of the documents have finally be signed, is still not officially registered so I still cannot pay all her bills, nor cancel her phone, hydro, have her mail transferred to me…;
- The finances are getting better as I am back to working full-time at the Golf Club – though that now means my body hurts. Everywhere;
- The boyfriend – no longer an issue as we are no longer together. All good, friendly good-bye and now we move forward;
- The mother – things went all wonky for a bit when her hubby got sepsis. He spent more than a month in the hospital and is now in rehab to work on gaining his strength. His planned return to home is June 11th. Things are finally working out there too.
Funny. As I was listing these things, I realised, as we speak (so to speak), that each negative issue has become more of a positive one – even if there are still things to be settled. They are progressing in a forward motion. So why the hell am I not sleeping? There must be more stuff in there (mind) that I cannot express at this time. (Note to self, when these things pop up again, do number 1 above.)
It’s a little late but I must thank my lovely brother-in-law, Sébastien for changing my tires for me. It’s always nice to be able to count on family for these things. Plus, I got a meal outta the deal!
Tracy and Sébastien also hosted the Mother’s Day brunch this year and, for the first time in three years, I was not working and was able to participate. Well… I worked, but only at 2 so thanks go to my boss for scheduling me later so that I could do some activity with my boys.
A funny thing seems to happen with me. Well I think it’s funny, or rather, I am touched that it does happen. Ach! What I am trying to say is, I must have made some kind of impact on people over the years. A few ladies I went to high school with decided to get together for a dinner. We were supposed to be five but ended up being four. The crazy thing is this. None of the three other ladies finished high school with me. We knew each other from grades 7-9, and one of them was only in my school and my class in Grade 9. And yet, they included me in the get-together. It was a lovely evening of playing catch-up. One of them, Marie-Claude, I see once in a blue moon, but the other two I hadn’t seen since Grade 9. At least a hundred years ago.
I’m also lucky enough to have a friend who was able to open my pool for me for a reasonable fee. It gets uncomfortable to be asking for help for so many things. Yes, I know, I could learn how to open it, but frankly, the boyfriend closed it last fall and took the whole bloody thing apart, though not necessary, and, also frankly, I didn’t have one friggen clue (nor wanted to) of how to put the whole thing back together again. Now, the pool water is clear as a spring… but, I cannot vacuum it yet as I cannot do a backwash as I need a new hose (dammit) to be connected to it. Sigh. Never ends. That should take place on Monday….
And, I’ve been feeling all warm and fuzzy at work lately. It’s the beginning of the golf season, and, though my body doth protest the abuse, it also means the return of the members. Some have been there since day 1 but others have been returning from the wintering in Florida (it is a private club, remember… ) Why am I pointing this out? Because with each return (okay, not every one), on top of a kiss on the cheek and a hug, I get a “I’m so happy you are back with us this year” or “Yay, my favourite is back!” or “So nice, we are guaranteed good service again this year”. It is so very gratifying to feel appreciated. It’s even better for my ego when they tell me these things in front of my bosses… 😉 Hmmm… Wonder if I can get a bonus based on the number of “smile” comments I get?
For my last post, two things occurred at the same time.
Now, I know 500 posts is no big whup – especially for those who multi-post in one day or post daily… but I’m cool with that.
The weeds have taken over the back yard so, if I want to set up an open house, I shall have lots of work to do. Have asked for the boys’ help. Moondust does not mind them at all, actually…
June 1 was yesterday, and was my only day off this week, and they called for rain all day. Not a drop fell. And holy toledo, June came in with a bang! Yesterday’s temp was 30°C (86°F) with a humidex – humidity factor or what the temperature really feels like – of 38°C (104°F). Would have been nice to have a clean pool but all good. Thankfully there was a fabulous breeze which kept it bearable. I was able to work for a bit in the garden. The weeds have taken over and it’s not a pretty sight. I should be doing more of that as we speak but instead, I am writing this post! Plus, I have to leave in half an hour to bring my mother to her hubby… Oh well, another day, right? I work at 4 so, no time. My story and I’m sticking to it.
Just got back from driving Mom. Lord love a duck. The traffic is INTENSE. They have closed the tunnel direction to Montreal so the next available bridge is the Jacques-Cartier… the line-up to get on said bridge is gonna take way more than 45 minutes. How glad am I to work on this side of the island of Montreal? On top of that, there was a sign saying the J-C bridge is CLOSED at midnight tonight… I dunno. I can’t help but think this will affect tonight’s reservations for Lobster Night at the club… I know one of the members – a friend – who was considering cancelling it…
Oh well… off to take my shower so I can stink of Lobster in about 3 hours…
Have a fabulous week-end, folks!
A few of the 10,000 things that make me happy and grateful
46. Old friends wanting to include me
47. Things are moving forward
48. Friends who help out
49. Sunny Days
50. Feeling appreciated for my work