Finding myself without employment for the first time in almost eight years, I felt I must not waste this golden opportunity to do that which I never seem to have the time to do. That I must use this time in the most productive way.
Also, it’s the perfect time to create the business I’ve dreamt of having, finally do B-School, put my pictures in order, purge the house of all the stuff… The list could (and does) go on! I have such a long list I could never go back to a job again! It is also such a list that I have managed to totally overwhelm myself! Made it into such a mountain that I can’t see the peak!
I need to just breathe! (Go, Eddy Vedder!)
And listen to Martha Beck! She suggests we need to do a little more nothing!
I don’t know why we seem to be hard-wired to need to always be doing something whenever we find ourselves “without a reason to get up in the morning” (read: job)! And I do have a reason to get up in the morning! I have plans! Blogs to write! Jelly to make! Cooking Classes to create!
But today, all I wanted to do was. Nothing. It has been a week since Freedom Day and I have barely stopped. Today I did do a few things: bring the boys to school for official registration (yes! school starts in two days!), washed all the mattress covers and sheets. But the rest of the day? Nada. Made like a couch potato and watched all my taped cooking shows!
I will not feel guilty (no matter how hard it is to do) for taking one day to just veg. Sometimes that’s what the body needs and if we don’t listen to our body, it will force us to. I know too many people who have gotten sick or burnt out because they decided to ignore all the warning signs the body was trying to give. After a while, a drastic message gets sent! All systems STOP! I know I was slowly headed in that direction and had my circumstances not changed as they did, would have ended up in the same boat.
So yes, it is OK to just stop everything and not be productive and Just Breathe.